My heart and other black holes Hodder & stoughton (Hodder & Stoughton)

Aysel, sixteen, wants to die. She's the school 'freak', the daughter of a murderer, and everyone - including Aysel herself - suspects she might turn out just like her no-good dad. She becomes obsessed with planning her own death, though she's not sure she has the courage to go through with it. And so she makes a pact with an unlikely boy with the same goal...but as she starts to feel for him in a way she thought she couldn't feel about anything, she begins to question everything she believed was true.